N level is in 18 more days. There's alot of things i need to do. There's alot of things in my head. I could not ignore it because it really serious. Why must they do this? Why didnt they think of the consequences? Why they do without thinking? Im seriously having a headche. After baby told me what had happened,im speechless. I dont know what else to say. My brain cant even function properly. After knowing it,i cant forgive myself. Im such a USELESS GUY! all the way i been quiet. Until my teachers all tegur me. Even my friends. Today i guess i didnt study at all. I couldnt concentrate. I didnt concentrate on my favourite subject also. Every people should be happy after they got their results. For me? Eventhough i did well this time,there's not even a smile on my face. Now i dont even know what's the meaning of happiness. I seen many couples. I seen couples who fight using their hands and sometimes slap each other. But what stunned me was they are still together after many many months. Really jealous of them. My relationship with baby? We are okay but we are having probs. But i just wanna baby to stick with me through thick and skin. Thats what i told azmi. And azmi said that baby surely know that i love her alot. I just wanna her to be with me all the time. But whatever it is,im still gonna keep my promises. And so my story continues. With a heavy heart i fetch baby. Im really pissed off with myself. Why cant i make baby happy? Why cant i be the good character in this story. Why must i always be a bad boy where people wont trust me? I dont know why. But seeing baby smile just now make me relex a little bit. At least i knew that she was having fun with her gfs. And it was raining heavily. I got once told baby this. Every drop of the rainfall means I LOVE YOU. Dont know if baby still remember it anot. So we talk some things when going home. Baby keep calling me "baby" which i really like to hear from her.Then baby gave me another chance. But as times pass by i dont what had happened. ): Im truly depressed. I reached home and saw myself all alone eventhough there are mummy and adik at home. I just feel that im lonely right now. Nobody even invite me inside house. Tadi when i shed tears,who was there with me? nobody. I love baby alot. She always try to make me happy no matter what. If can i dont want to show her im hurt. I just want to make her happy. I have said that to her also. Whether she remember it anot? Then baby text me. Dont ask me what its all about. Actually im heartbroken after hearing it. There's alot of things in my mind right now. I dont know what to do. Im stressed. Headche. Why must this happened to me? 18 more bloody days and i had to encounter this all. I dont blame baby. She's not at fault. But you guys! Please wake up from your world! why are you making my r/s miserable? You once told me that you dont want to masuk campur. But eversince sis got a new bf you change alot i tell you.Even azmi perasan. You love kakak more than me. Dulu you never even dare to masuk campur. But now? Why cant you be like dad? He really understand me. He trust me. But you? Go la carry on trusting kakak. You will soon know that she had stepeed over your head.. Im just dissapointed with you. You really have change eversince that guy came. Why cant you be like dulu? I had enough with you. I dont know why? But that guy have make us have quarrel always. Pissed off with you.GOD! If you really hate me alot,then punish me. Why must you hurt other people? Why cant you just punish me? Please, i dont want other people to be hurt again.And to you who have made this thing all messed up,i hope you will know what i mean. You will know what love means. And you will know that i can die for someone who really meant alot to me. Get this. I dont want to kurang ajar with you. Thats why i talking to you nicely. Baby,now im begging you to stay. Please i need you. Pease be with me always. I really love you♥♥♥

BABY! I REALLY BEGGING YOU RIGHT NOW. PLEASE STAY WITH ME. I NEED YOU. I READ YOUR PLURK AND SEE YOU PM. I WAS SAD,HEARTBROKEN AND MANY MORE TO SEE IT. IT FEELS LIKE 1000 KNIFE STAB THROUGH MY HEART. PLEASE BABY, IM STILL HOLDING ON TO MY PROMISES. PLEAS I NEED YOU.))):